Sem break

一回来，就中老妈骂，因为太迟开车回来，
回来后又发现到一个朋友跟他的女朋友分手了，
竟然在fb上喊话，看到我真的无言，
我只能告诉，凡事留一手，以后还是朋友，
男孩子要大方一点，要有担当，要有气魄，才能撑起一片天，
结果，他还是。。。不知道该怎么讲。。。
我只能说时间只是一种缓冲剂，
一对恋人相爱 ，如果能用时间的长短来计算吗？
我觉得不能，因为有些人需要很长的时间去爱上一个人，
有些人可能只需一秒就能爱上一个人了，
那么还能够说时间的长短，来衡量你们相爱的程度吗？
还比电影情节里，有些相爱很久的情侣，在遇到危机却也会露出本性，
难道还能说时间的长短能证明相爱的深浅吗？
前几天和家人一起去看IRON MAN 2,
好久都没跟爸妈一起去看戏了，
以前是他们带我去看，现在换我了，
我才发现，老爸和老妈真的老了许多，
尤其是老妈，最近才动手术回来，身体也大不如前了，
昨天肚子又有点痛，叫她去看医生又不要，真的很担心，
我什么却也不能做，因为我还不会赚钱，
真希望我以后可以赚很多钱，给她享受人生，
刚刚小舅打电话给妈妈，
说外婆病到满严重，肺积水，心脏又有点肿，
老妈明天要回去照顾她，
可是却不让我回去，要我留在家里看家。。。
真的很担心，今年对我来讲会是非常艰辛的一年，
我一定要咬紧牙关挨过去，一定要加油。。。

Holidays~~~

yeah...just finished my last subject less than 24hours ago,
so happy that another sem is passed already and here comes the holiday i expected...
so, i m just hope that this holidays can let take a very very good rest and relax...
i want to eat as much as i can,
just because this sem is really so suck for me....
i m totally lost my appetite and many unexpected things just happened all around me....
i m just so tired and fed up to many things,
this time i m really tired and no more smile than ever before already,
just hope that this sem break i can gain back a bit of my weight although i know there is not so much different as i gain 2 or 3 kgs,
i want to go to watch IP MAN 2 and IRON MAN 2,
maybe i will watch them alone by myself,
but it doesn't matter,
cause i m quite enjoy go cinema watch movie alone,
i m now really quite get used to it already,
cause alone is more suitable for me...
Just hope to see ur smile and hear your voice again...
even in my dream i also don't mind...
well, is just my imagination and as i say is in my dream...
so this won't become true again although i had it before....
nitez.......

不知所措中。。。

我靠~~~
E-commerce真是他娘的闷啊，
都是一些虚拟的东东，
看两页就想睡觉，
都不知道拜三要怎么考，
你明天会回来，
很替你感到开心，
知道你回来找朋友玩，
我想我应该还是很难开口跟你讲话，
所以还是把我的眼睛再眯一点吧。。。
希望你接下来的几天玩得尽兴吧。。。

Missing 1 piece of puzzle...

Today i m just finished my third subject,
HRM=human resource management,
what kind of suck subject it is, study so many things and for the section A,
I totally don't know what i m wrote, just using my common sense and try to bluff it,
Although bluffing is the thing i m always do, this time really don't what i m bluffing...
Wondering this subject is Harm Richard Mati or Mad....
really is suck and sick....
Never mind, still left 1 subject then i can totally free my soul after that....

Wondering you doing what now,
Just saw many people pm wrote about you and wondering what was your feeling at that moment....
My memory is just flashback since that day we met up at the 1st time,
If the time really can go back, i m sure i will do the thing what i wanted to do at that moment....
Now there is a piece of puzzle in my heart is missing,
i m just wondering if i could ever find it back....
Still remember my friends told me,
My smile is true and happy just like in heaven at that moment,
Now i never gonna find back that smile again,
i m really can't like that again without you....
Distance is not only 700km, is more far than that....

真的是再见了。。。

刚刚我也不知道为什么，
开着车冲到你住的地方，
刚好看到你的车，一直想找个机会，
超前去看看，哪怕就那么一眼，
却也没有机会，
最后一次见到你，深蓝色的上衣，白色的长裤。。。
这回却只收到你的信息，却什么也没了，
我的脑，好空白，空空的。。。
我的记忆就只停格在那里。。。

For YOU

知道这个消息后，
突然觉得好失落，也好伤心，
但我知道这是你的决定，
也就只好支持你，
虽然不知道你会不看我的blog,
只想告诉你，以后去外面做工，
不要太好人，社会是很不一样的，
不要每件事别人叫你帮你就帮，
偶尔也要懂得拒绝别人，就好像你以前对我那样，
也要小心外面的男生，出门在外也要提防他们，
即使是多好，多熟的朋友，
我想如果之前的事没发生，我现在这个时候可能还会约你出来，就只想见一见你，
但我连这个勇气都没有，我连开口对你说话的勇气也没有，
也许下一次再见，或许能开口了吧，我想。。。
不知道会不会再见，以后上msn或许都没什么机会，信息更不用讲吧，
因为我的号码已经消失了，
尽管我知道我拿的号码是在很后面的，所以也轮不到我有这个机会来安慰你，
也许对你来说我真的不是对的人，因为你有太多选择，
对我来说也许是不对的时间，因为我跟你的时差，地球的自转，让我出现在不对的时候，
现在你还在跟我msn，我也尽量的不漏痕迹，我想一旦过了今天后就没机会了，
即使刚才我是被msn的声音吵醒，因为我深怕错过了今夜，
没想到你还会记得回我，
你说我已经变成你曾经的朋友，
而我却没有把你当成曾经的朋友，而是比朋友，好朋友更上一层的关系，
不管以后在哪里，只要你过得好，对我来讲就已经足够了，
但愿地球的自转会把两条平行线，转到你想要的地方，你想要的情况吧。。。

What a loser

My life really suck this time,
Just because of the AAP just now,
I know the question is easy n i had done it again and again,
somehow,i also don't know will end up like tat,
can totally score 50 marks for section B then i can move on to my target,
NOW, I'M TOTALLY RUIN IT AND MY LIFE ALSO!!!!!!!!!
What the fucking hell i was doing and thinking AT THE FUCKING MOMENT,
I m a libra, all I want is fair and equal,
but,everytime EFFORT really NOT EQUAL TO RESULT,
EVERYTHING for me, i m just always mess up and i m nothing but useless,
what a jerk and loser i m...
Not even my studies, everything related to me i also can't manage....
I m not a real man but a LOSER...
I need to work harder for my left subjects....

复杂

等下就要考试了，
看到了一则信息后，
顿时觉得很失落，
我以我不痛，原来只是将我自己伪装，用假快乐来麻醉自己，
也许你误解了我的意思，
不讲话不代表不把你当朋友，
只是我真的不知道要怎么开口，
我就是这么懦弱，就是这么差劲。。。
我以为我很潇洒，很坚强。。。
既然你要把我从你的电话簿删除，
我也不敢再奢望地球的转动会让我们再次有交际。。。
就让地球一直把两条线一直转，一直转。。。

我还认识你吗？

昨天在fb看到某人post了一句话，
不知道是不是在讲我，
但我却很在意，
我不知道该怎么说，
但只从那件事过后，
我有一段时间是颓废，
过得好像不是人的生活，
几乎都是天亮才睡，
以前总会叫你早点睡。。。
现在，好不容易才找回生活的重心，
认不认识，对我来讲已经没什么意义，
对你来说， 我想应该也是多我一个不多，少我一个也不少，
只是对我来说，电话号码我还是依然留着，
只是你已不再是我认识的你了。。。

study week

Just came back from gopeng MCD...XD
finally ate the Mega Mac...^^

tis is my Mega Mac
reli damn shiok n full loh...hoho...
n tis my frenz 1

tis whole week keep going to library study...
juz the weather is too hot, summore my laptop n bed keep kacau+ing me...><
study in library is quite nice,coz got air-con n lengluis to watch...wakaka...XD
went to ipoh stadium swimming wif my frenz, zk,ah fu, kirk n ah lai...
after tat we went to MCD had our dinner...woohoo...
after tat, we studied at MCD wif another 2 gals which are hoder n joey....
AAP really make me headache n mental torturing....yucksss....@@
at thr we keep studying, chatting n kap lui...wahaha...so nice...
so tired dy...1 2 go 2 slp loh...Zzzz.....